Isolation 2020 – ‘It’s whatever you want it to be’
Creative photographer Kirsty Marshall creates a montage of lockdown messages to explore what it means to live in isolation.
We are stuck, in a way the world has not experienced before, inside our homes. The pubs are closed. The nine-to-five is working from home, in furlough or redundant. The planes are grounded, the trains are empty and the cars only start when they have to. The world we knew has stopped but, for the first time, we’re in it together. For the first time, we are joined together as a planet in experiencing a global pandemic, and that is difficult to comprehend. There are almost no words for it.
But never in our lifetime has it felt more necessary to document this moment and this experience, and there has never been a time when we’ve had so many creative outlets at our fingertips. It’s hard to imagine a world without social media, and now is a time when we might feel conflicted about the social media channels that bring us together but also inevitably lead us to compare ourselves to others. Social media can be an emotional minefield. Instagram can feel like a who’s who of who’s best – but it doesn’t have to.
Kirsty Marshall is a creative photographer based in Bedfordshire, who recently returned home from a long stay in Bali where she found her voice and creative independence from the community she built and the freedom she had to take risks and try new things.
In 2018, Marshall’s world was shattered by the heart-breaking loss of her mum. The painful experience of grief shook the foundations her life was built on in the most brutal and emotionally bludgeoning way, when the rest of world keeps turning without you. But she collected the shards and broken pieces and flew to Bali where she gradually began to put the pieces back together; the scars that bind each shard now glisten like a constellation.
Shaken out of her comfort zone, Marshall lived in Bali for seven months working on photographic portraits, asking her models honest questions about themselves to show more than just a photograph but the layers that make up a person. As a result, her portraits capture strength, radiance and resilience as well as fragility, vulnerability and humanness.
Marshall also started her mini documentary series, Creative Diaries, where she captures poets, artists and designers on film talking freely about their craft and allowing them to show their personality to the world, unguarded. This practice creates a collage of people and the different ways they express themselves through rare moments of intimacy.
In her new project, Isolation 2020, Marshall asked a group of people aged between 20–32 to finish the sentence ‘It’s...’ with a message about what their experience of isolation has been. At the end, a chorus of voices chime together: ‘It’s whatever you want it to be.’ With a runtime just under two minutes, Marshall edits heartfelt, thoughtful – at times joyful, at others painful but brave – messages together like a patchwork. She creates a fabric of intimate experiences during an unparalleled moment in human history.
On the release of Isolation 2020, I spoke to Kirsty Marshall about what inspired the project and what isolation has meant for her.
Kirsty Watling: What inspired you to do this project?
Kirsty Marshall: There is a lot of pressure present at the moment, and where our heads are at currently, it is pulling on the ‘self-worth’ strings. I feel there is this isolation ‘doing and posting’ going on; perhaps using social media posts to feel gratification or to prove how active and productive we’re being during this isolation experience. When really, there is no right or wrong way, as no one has ever been through anything like this before.
I wanted to outline how up and down people and our emotions have been. How each person has had their own version of Isolation 2020.
KW: Why is creativity important to you?
KM: ‘Creative’ is a label that took me years to claim. I figured I didn’t do contemporary dance, sing, create these abstract, quirky art pieces; I didn’t feel I fit the category that my brain once perceived as creative. Once I picked the seams of this perception and took the pressure away- I then grew courage to delve into different forms of creative expression. I lived in Bali July 2019–February 2020 which is really where I began calling myself a creative, with pride. I met so many inspiring, encouraging people, who guided me further down my path of creativity, and a path where I no longer feared judgement.
KW: What are you finding difficult during isolation?
KM: The difficulties isolation is presenting me, is not being able to fulfil my desire for human connection! Humans amaze me and I’m grateful for every opportunity I get to meet new people. I’m really missing socialising, making new friendships and making more memories with my amazing friends and family.
KW: Is there anything you’re enjoying or appreciating more in isolation?
KM: I’ve learnt a lot in isolation, but that just being it – What! I am capable of retaining new information and expanding my knowledge?! As we get older, we have this limiting belief – ‘I’m too old to do that’ – no we’re not! I have done a course on relationships and understanding myself in them, and various short Open University courses which are free. I’ve also noticed my interest to writing poetry has re-birthed, and as well generally, my creative juices are flowing strong.
Watch Isolation 2020 @kirstymarshallphoto.